I wrote the following letter to be read by my children the day they launch out into the world on their own. It’s hard to believe that’s only ten years away.
Dearest Children of Mine,
Today, as you read this letter, you’re preparing to move out of our home. I’m sure you’re giddy as you load your boxes into the trunk of our car, and I’m sure your dad and I are nervous as we check to make sure your doors lock properly.
But, today, as I write this letter, you’re just a little thing with wild hair. As I type this, you’re sleeping with an innocence and peace in your bed. You still ask me to cuddle with you every night, but tonight I told you no, because I was impatient and wanted a kiss to be enough. I now wish I had said yes.
Your eyes still light up when you see me walk in the room, and you follow me around the house longing for me to give you more of my undivided time. I don’t always stop and take the time to give you what you need, instead, out of frustration, I brush you off and ask you to leave me alone so I can finish my household duties I think are so important right now. You always come back eager to spend time with me, never questioning my love for you.
Today, I mean the world to you.
There are many years between the time I write this and the time you read it. There are too many uncertainties, too many open ended questions, and too many things that are out of my control. It’s these things that terrify me; I don’t know how to make all the right decisions, and teach you all the right things. I don’t understand why God gives a mother a beautiful gift like you to keep near, cherish, and love for many years, only to ask me to let you go.
I don’t know how much longer I’ll light up your eyes. I don’t know how many times I’ll mess up and let you down. I don’t know how our story will end, but there is one thing I know, there is one thing I am certain,
Because of you I am a better person.
Walking this road with you has taught me to stay and fight for the people I love. You’ve given me a reason to practice saying, “I’m sorry” and “I love you” with wild abandonment. You’ve shown me unconditional love, grace and complete acceptance. Your pure whole-heartedness has brought laughter, life, and excitement into our home.
So, today we’re giving you space to spread your wings and fly, and we’ll do whatever we can to make sure you’re successful at it, but it’s because of your daily childish example, you have demonstrated to us what it takes to enter into the kingdom of heaven. It’s your pure heart that has shown us who will see God, so for this we will always be indebted to you.
Thank you, my dearest ones for showing me how to be a better person.
I will love you always,
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