When Love Feels More Like Hate

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Jesus loves me.  I can sing the Sunday School song to prove it.
How, then, do I comprehend his love when it feels more like hate?

The blow is vicious and blinding.  I try to focus, but it’s a difficult task when suddenly I’m drowning.

Every Christian cliché makes me want to punch a panda bear in the face.
Pray about it.  

 

Give it to Jesus.  

 

Have faith.  

 

He will see you through. 

 

Where’s a panda bear when I need one?  The pain is real. The wounds are extensive.  Hiding them isn’t possible anymore, so I rip off every Christian band-aid and bleed.

 

I force myself to remain present. I acknowledge my fear, doubt, anger, and hopelessness.  I feel every stinging emotion running through my veins. I grieve. Deeply.

 

Then through the roar of my pain I hear a small voice, “My dove, I love you too much to leave you to yourself”.

 

Somehow, I believe him and I hurt just a little less.

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Several years ago Bob Sorge lost his voice with no explanation, and as a pastor and worship leader this sent in into spiritual crisis.  Take a few minutes to watch this compelling video where Bob shares how God can be found in our living hell.

 

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